Monday, May 28, 2007
i dun like it when i'm going through emo nites...nites whereby i feel so empty within...the thot of my future jus seem so bleak....everything is nt rite...nt knowing wat to expect...nt knowing wat will happen...with 101 things to do yet nt wanting or rather nt knowing how to go abt doing it ...with nites like these i jus wanna hide under my blanket...wet my pillow...n fall asleep...someone commented tat i haf lose my "positiveness" in life...to a certain extent...it might be true...things tat haf happened has cause me to lose hope in many things...the forward looking me is disappearing...i wish i can find it back...n i'm trying to... i truly believe tat it's important to renew our thinking wif the word of God...but i gt to admit tat it's nt easy...it's like a battle...like wat pastor preached..the word gt to be in you ... to be part of ya...
it's easy to acquire knowledge abt something...but to apply it in ya life is another thing...it requires conviction...oh man... i need conviction...i'm tired of overcoming it wif my own strength...i need to let go...if nt it will jus kill me on the inside...why make myself unhappy by holding on? i tried letting go...but i can't...it jus keeps coming back...
help me i pray ...