Friday, April 06, 2007
i wanna dive...i wanna go back to the other side of the world..the world that is completely different from wat we go through everydae...yes...each visit may jus last for an hour or so...but it's enough...i miss tat peace and tat calmness tat i experience in the waters...i enjoy seeing things tat i can't see every single dae... most importantly...my mind is free for tat short span of time...nothink else..but jus sheer calmness and peace and joy....immerse in wat i call battles everydae is bad enough...nt seeing breakthroughs n battles jus get tougher each time i face it wif faith n hope...man...tat feeling is no good...it jus gets me down even more...n makes things even worse...at times i wonder...maybe i shouldn't face it all together...why face it n get more disappointments and get hurt even more? yes...i know it isn't suppose to be easy in the first place...but i din expect it to be tat tough neither...tough till the extent i can't bear anymore...i know i need to carry on...but how? there are so many "i know" ...but i don't know how to execute the "i know"...haha..complicating? yes...it is...my life is complicating...
maybe tat's why i wanna go on a dive...to find simplicity there...maybe it's complicating as well..but at least i need not understand the complications there...all i need is to see n enjoy is the simplicity over there...
anyway...it's Easter...let's celebrate !!
the crazy nite !! ..haha
