Sunday, May 14, 2006
i should be out now toking to my cousins and my aunties and uncles now...but i chose to shut myself in my cousin's room...to spend some time alone...of course wif some young cousins in the room playing their all time favorite...maple story...thank God my mum brought my lappie along...at least i can pretend to be doing something while my mind is wandering in the world of thots...hee..Pst phil shared abt prayer during this wkend...it was great...i remembered for a period of time i realli prayed ... as in w/o fail i would spend hours jus praying...staying in his presence...but this kind of prayer life slowly fade away...because of many reasons...n one particular reason is coz of discouragement...somehow...those breakthroughs never seem to come...whereas it got even worse...n when i pray...the exact opposite would happen...haha...thus...somehow...i started to haf this mindset...i rather nt pray...at least things won't be that bad...of course tat wrong mindset has been renewed ..
however...something similar happened todae...i was praying for a breakthrough last nite for my cg...realli praying and crying out...n todae...the exact opposite happen...nt onli did i not haf a breakthrough...but todae's attd was one of my lowest ever...n so many things started to surface...n i realli haf to do a health check on my cg...at a pt of time during service...tat old mindset crept in...i would hear the devil clearly speaking.."see, you shouldn't haf prayed last nite." i was shattered...but during the service...Pastor said a sentence.." to see a revival..you dun jus work hard...but you pray THROUGH..." the key isn't all your programs etc..but it's you praying through...praying till you see it coming to past...likewise...for all the various breakthroughs you are praying for...it may not happen immediately...but...if you are willing to pray through...it will surely happen...Pastor Kong waited for 12 yrs...b4 he had his financial breakthrough...of course i pray tat i won't haf to wait for 12 yrs for a breakthrough in my cg n i know i won't...but it tells me one thing...His promises are yes and amen...n it will surely come to past...if you are willing to hold on n pray through it...nt letting go...not entertaining the thots that will lead you to failure but focusing your thots on the word of God tat will lead you to success...
one of the things i haf caught...is realli to pray through things...
God...i pray for a group of disciples...not jus believers or attendees...but DISCIPLES...