Saturday, February 18, 2006
well...finally...a dae on my own...i need it actually...had to teach swimming...but thank God the lesson in the evening was cancel...could spend some time alone at home...nt tat i haf become anti social...but i seriously need some time alone to sort out my thots...haf been facing happenings after happenings...i need some time to slow things down a little n think through certain things...yesterdae was a gd signal for me...i nearly broke down in front of many...come to think of it...am i realli strong or am i jus supressing my feelings? or am i jus escaping from the truth by keeping myself occupied wif work n other stuff?? i kept telling shuz to focus..i seem to be focusing...but am i realli focusing??
"Believe"..SOT 2005 grad service...tat word was mention umpteen times...meiyan shared once to believe in your members...those of you who came to my house recently...u would haf seen the word "believe" on my pin board too...but now...tat word seems so foreign...seems like the more i believe..the worse things get...haha...man...tis is realli a test on my faith man...haha...but direct copyright from miss xw "i'm bad at giving up"...one thing for sure...i'm nt gonna give up my faith in God...however...there may be some stuff i need to give up...i still haf to be realistic at the end of the dae...tat is why i gt sort out my thots.. think through carefully n pray abt it...which are the ones i ought to hold on n which are the ones i need to gif up n move on...either way...it will surely cause much changes in my life...
however...it's during tis period of time when i finally learn wat isit like to be thankful n to bless the Lord in all situations..there is always something for me to be thankful for...despite of all tat i'm facing...one of which is...i'm truely thankful for my friends...they are always there...lending you a helping hand...a listening ear..the friends tat i haf...at every stage of my life...are indeed a blessing to me...regardless of whether i'm still in touch wif them now or not...
basically there are 3 major groups of friends in my life...it's too long to type out all tat we went through...but i'm glad we cross paths in this life time...
my fairfield daes
my poly days
last but not least..
my church friends
tks peepz...everyone of you haf made a diff in my life...love ya guys...=p