Monday, February 13, 2006
jus came back from supper wif s.x...ops...guilty...hee...anyway...todae is my last dae of unhealthy living...as promised...after cny i'm going to be on a diet...yep...so...gonna start todae...lol...anyway...seems to haf worry some of you out there who read my previous entry which i haf deleted it away...tks for all ya concern...things still dun look good...but i'm still holding on...=p keep me in ya prayers...=p
anyway...tis phrase just came to me...backsliding is like spiritual suicide...it's like a permanent solution to a temporary problem....how did i ended up tis topic?? well...know of some friends who backslided...n i wonder why...n some even said tat they are happy...well...i paused for a moment n reflected...trace back to those times when i left God..true..u will feel liberated...happy...but tat will NOT last...it's temporary..at the end of the day...you will realise...you still need God...tat explains why i'm back in His presence...i admitted defeat...
why did ppl commit suicide?? coz they feel hopeless in certain circumstances that they face? stress? out of foolishness?? n tat is why they chose tat route...thinking tat they will find eternal happiness after they leave tis mortal world...for a moment...wat they thot may be true...but..will they realli find eternal happiness?? i seriously dun think so...they will miss out much more...by ending their life here on earth...
same for ppl who backslide...b'coz of the situations they face...stress...peer presence...they thot they will be happier...haf a better life after they leave the presence of God? isit true?? yes i did thot tat life w/o God n not nt serving Him is gonna be a bliss...but i was wrong...i felt even more empty at the end of the dae...n likewise...i miss out on what God was gonna do in my life during tat 2 years...
dun get me wrong...i'm nt against any backsliders out there...i can't pin point at you...coz i was also a backslider once too...but wat i'm trying to put across is...dun use a permanent solution for a temporary problem...hold on...coz u never know wat is ahead if u hold on...stay in the presence to find the peace n strength tat you need...do not be fool by the temporary pleasure tat u may enjoy...go for the eternal...even if u haf already left...it's alright...jus come back to the race again n continue running...yes...time has been lost...but at least now u are back...you can continue to run this great race tat God has for you...=p
life is nt problem free...wat happens is you go through it victoriously...like wat xw wrote on her nick..."i'm bad at giving up" .. you can be good in everything but pls be bad in giving up...=p was reminded once again abt wat i had learn in SOT...God showed the disciples tat they are going over to the other side...but they were nt told how...neither were they told abt the storm...likewise...GOd has given you the dreams n vision...but He never told you how it will come to past n wat you will go through...but one thing we can be assured of is tat despite of all that we may face..Christ is there throughout...jus like the storm that the disciples faced...Christ was there...so hold on...soon the storm will be over...=p
wat is your vision n calling?? stay focus...dun lose it...=p
i'm suppose to teach later..shall zonk off now...