= Lost In You Alone =

2009-01-21T23:00:00.003+08:00

i haf moved !
say bye to blogspot and hi to wordpress...

www.jlpiglet.wordpress.com

see ya there ... =)

2009-01-18T23:28:00.002+08:00

it was another random meet up...
this time round we ended up at china town..
it was crowded and windy
like wat lipo said...nt onli were we battling with the crowd..
we had to battle wif the wind too...
i wan more of the curry fish ball!
haha

2009-01-05T22:18:00.003+08:00

it was a super random meetup on sundae...
but it was good ...
i love the fruits ... n of course dia's prawns ... haha
waiting for the next...
botanic garden... cheese...red wine...more chocolates please... n prawns? haha

optimism is in the air...
ppl are optimistic abt this new yr...
i am too...
but i'm learning to manage my expectations...
learning to know wat to trust and wat can be treated as nonsense...
i dun wan a repeat...

i shall try...tis yr...the one after jan...

2009-01-01T22:14:00.003+08:00

It's another brand new yr...
ended 2008 with the leaders at "back to school!"

i'm thankful for 2008..
it may not be the best yr..
but i'm glad tat i went through it...

excited for 2009? kind of..
jus alittle apprehensive abt the stuff tat i will face in the brand new yr...
one major transition will happen in the mid of the yr..
i need to know wat to do thereafter...
at times i wish i can be a student forever..haha

shall let the pixs do the rest of the talking...=)

i will just let one pix out from the PJ party k? =)

the fairsians

MY subzone with pastor

YK leaders !

2008-12-14T23:00:00.002+08:00

sometimes i dun mind soaking myself wif work...
at least it takes my mind off a whole lot of stuff..

i'm awaiting for the dae...
the dae when everything is new

2008-12-03T22:58:00.004+08:00

a quick supper turns out to be another long nite..
realize...whenever the 4 of us get together...our time is always very "stretchable"
jus like the other time...suppose to head home...but we ended up watching F1 together...

anyhow...it was a great time...those stories that S shared were "WOW" ...
ppl may wow at ya story...but how many will really support it by practical means?
it's realli time to do things differently ...

i realize i stop looking/ reading up on phones after i bought my present phone...till an extent i can't use a touch phone properly...i haf totally lose touch wif mobiles...nt knowing wat's the trend etc...after playing wif J's phone during the camp..i'm tempted to upgrade my phone... haha... since i can onli renew my contract after Jan09... i shall stop being a mountain turtle and start to search for a nice phone ... =) recommendations?

too much of gossip girl...tat explains why i started to mention ppl wif the 1st alphabet of their names...=)

one of the few pixs tat i took during camp .. ignore my kuku fringe

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tis entry is veri randomize ...
i need to slp...but i'm waiting for my results to be release...
so i'm jus blabbering watever tat comes to my mind..

k...i gif up waiting...bed is more tempting...

XOXO ... =)

see the influence of gossip girl? hahaha

2008-11-30T22:46:00.001+08:00

it has been a good 2 wks...
new experiences...new encounters...

for now...it's time to clear my slp debt...

2008-11-27T00:07:00.003+08:00

it's camp unity in a few hours time and i haf been running toilet for a hundred over times...
oohh crap....

well...putting tat aside....HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOSS! =)

i feel...nt myself...

2008-11-17T01:12:00.002+08:00

it's gonna be a long two weeks ahead...
asia conference followed by camp unity...
physically challenging...but within...i'm excited...

2008 is coming to an end...
i'm glad...
2009 will be better

n gosh...i'm becoming round again...arghh

2008-11-13T03:53:00.003+08:00

it has been a long time since i feel so student..haa
yes..i am still a student...

2008-11-08T00:10:00.002+08:00

it's a whole new beginning ...

sidenote : i need the gym...arghhh

2008-11-03T20:47:00.002+08:00

PT is driving me nuts..argh...
tis sem papers are kinda screwed...
can't wait for exams to be over...

n i'm proud of him!
he actually forgo his dream job...
haha...you know who you are if you are reading this..
=)
job hunt for ya straight after my papers...=)

2008-10-22T23:44:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ML ! =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIA BABE ! =)

i'm feeling ... .... .... =_=
i need to get up and get out

think big, start small, grow deep

2008-10-11T21:58:00.003+08:00

i'm proud of my gals...2 hours of drill...no complain...doing their best...

i love every moment with them..=))

2008-10-02T22:06:00.004+08:00

decided nt to post "my wedding"... figured tat it's more like a 2 parties kinda affair...
so...shall leave it till later..=p

fabulous trio timbre-ed last nite ... pizza wif beer...it was awesome... =)

draw courage

2008-09-20T12:13:00.004+08:00

this entry is specially for dia and inspired by monster-ru...hahaha...dia was given a choice...wedding or funeral first...she chose the latter..so here it goes...

My funeral

decoration - keep it simple but it's a must to haf my fav flowers...sunflowers and tulips
play my hubby - JJ's music
since i'm a chocoholic... chocolate is a must during my funeral...it will be good if there's a fondue serve wif long stem strawberries ....=)
forget abt peanuts and watever the black thing is called...replace it wif nachos and lots of cheese... =) please haf heavens and earth green tea instead of the imitation...no alcohol is allowed!! haha...jus in case you guys get too high and do silly stuff to the poor me lying in the coffin...hahaha...or rather... i'm jus plainly jealous..haha
please tell the makeup artist to leave my hair colour as it is...if it's black..leave it black...if it's white ...leave it as it is too...i think it's quite fake to dye my hair at such a pt of time..haha..
i will try to remember to smile before i breathe my last....but if i din...try to make me smile? haha...i wanna bid goodbye to everyone wif a smile....lol...
it will be nice if piggy gang and shu can give an eulogy during the service...i gif you gals the permission to expose all my unglamorous moments
of course i hope tat JJ can be there for a guest appearance...but i know it's difficult...so i dun mind if dia and yan do a special item
last nite .... supposedly the most impt nite...after all the service etc ... get the music going...bring out all the booze (onli time tat is allowed during my funeral..haha)...n get everyone to move those bodies and do those grooves ... =) it's the last chance to revive me... i may be too jealous of you guys ...having such a wild party and i may just hop out of my coffin and join you guys at the dance floor ...haha
oya...can i haf a funky coffin pls?? nt those dull black or brown ones can? hee
during the last send off...dun cry too much...rejoice...coz i'm on my way to a better place...n waiting for the rest to join me before we continue to rock on in heaven...=)
dun use those passport photo during my funeral please...i usually dun look good in those pixs..hee..i still can't find a nice pic tat i wanna use...will update again once i find one...=)

wif jus a few hours of slp..tis is all tat i can think off now...seriously...even if all these things take place...will i know? well ...we shall see...k dia...it's listed...make sure it's done..haha...n i will make sure i'll visit you wif 4 numbers ..=)

alrite...on a side note...MAMMA MIA is AWESOME!!! ...hahaha...it's a must watch show...it has been quite some time since i laugh so much during a show...n nt forgetting ... Sam Carmichael is so charming... alrite...one more item added to my list...haha

alrite...time to slp alittle more ... stay tune for "my wedding" =)

2008-09-17T07:32:00.005+08:00

Card and magnet given by JT before he enlist...and he wrote alot!! haha...i laughed so much when i read it...

liang teh given by KS after our gym session

i realli haf great members in my cg...
i'm blessed to haf all of you ... =)

2008-09-15T11:01:00.000+08:00

everyone should haf a fair share in this
hahaha

2008-09-14T22:26:00.002+08:00

when pastor k shared abt wat pastor a said to him...
i was reminded...
i determine tat in my heart once too..
tat i will lay my life down for her...
nt tat i worship her..
but coz she has impacted my life greatly...
she is one who truly led by example...
she is one who showed genuine care and concern...
she is one who really wants to know the real you...
no matter how hard a nut you are
n nt jus b'coz she has to
she truly wants to
she is one who inspired me to run together with her
towards the vision

i miss you boss

2008-09-13T01:57:00.004+08:00

i stopped...
i wondered...
wat's going to happen...
will happen...
what's meant to be...
will be eventually...
so...

keep smiling and be happy ... =)

i will...
it's a matter of when and where...
stop me? it requires great charm...
why nt join me? =)

2008-09-08T23:40:00.002+08:00

fly me away...
to a place of solitude..
to a place of no return..

2008-09-03T10:35:00.003+08:00

those words stuck me hard...
thick skin and thin heart...
tough...close to impossible..

i dun see the rational behind certain things..
but still ...

quality and quantity...
strong and steadfast...
impact, inspire and influence....
how?

after so long...after tasting so many sweet successes ...
but still ... all credits to self...
wordless...

wants and needs...
never ending list...

here or there...
wat's next?
decisions has to be made...

the many thots ... n the list goes on

2008-08-30T01:29:00.005+08:00

after seeing all the unglam pixs on facebook...
i miss fairfield days even more...

can you bring me back?

2008-08-27T12:47:00.000+08:00

it's raining ...
i dun feel like going to sch ...

peeved

2008-08-21T21:36:00.003+08:00

my body feels as if it's shutting down anytime...
i can hear it scream...
had a terrible time in office...
was literally counting down to 5.30...
i still haf 1 full dae to go before i can let my body shut down...
counting down...

2008-08-20T20:00:00.007+08:00

like mention in the previous post...LLJ was great...
it was a session teaching on servanthood...Lead Like Jesus...
nothing new ... but it serves as a good reminder ...
besides all the sessions...the next highlight was the food! haha...
my fav was the long stem strawberry .... ultra sweet ... =) i love

being trap in a room for abt 8 hours ... to keep ourselves entertain... lameness strikes..haha
i had a partner...

guess who....owner of pix should know...hahaha
lastly... all of us were given a dragonfly which can be balance on almost everything...

i wanted to be adventurous....thus ... i tried...
balancing it on my nose...haha...

2008-08-18T21:21:00.007+08:00

LLJ was great...
although some stuff haf been taught in church before...
still...i was blessed by it...
shall share more abt it after i recuperate from my lack of slp...
one of the things that touches me most was the song played at the end..
it was a tribute to Billy Graham...how his giving of his life has changed and touched many lives...

Thank You
Words and Music by Ray Boltz
I dreamed I went to heaven
And you were there with me
We walked upon the streets of gold
Beside the crystal sea
We heard the angels singing
Then someone called your name
You turned and saw this young man
And he was smiling as he came

And he said, Friend
You may not know me now
And then he said, But wait
You used to teach my Sunday School
When I was only eight
And every week you would say a prayer
Before the class would start
And one day when you said that prayer
I asked Jesus in my heart

CHORUS:
Thank you for giving to the Lord
I am a life that was changed
Thank you for giving to the Lord
I am so glad you gave

Then another man stood before you
And said remember the time
A missionary came to your church
And his pictures made you cry
You didn't have much money
But you gave it anyway
Jesus took the gift you gave
And that's why I am here today

One by one they came
Far as the eye could see
Each life somehow touched
By your generosity
Little things that you had done
Sacrifices made
Unnoticed on the earth
In heaven now proclaimed

And I know up in heaven
You're not supposed to cry
But I am almost sure
There were tears in your eyes
As Jesus took your hand
And you stood before the Lord
He said, My child look around you
Great is your reward

2008-08-14T20:05:00.005+08:00

went hort park the other day...
enjoyed the walk...
i want to go again...

more pixs? check out facebook... =)

2008-08-09T23:28:00.002+08:00

i saw Sun!
still as gorgeous and she was in her super high heels ...
it was so sudden...i din know how to react...i said hi and she smiled...
den.....
"it's dinner time....wake up."
=_=

2008-08-09T00:54:00.002+08:00

it has been a yr...
it seems like everyone has moved on...
but deep within ...
we wish you are wif us

2008-08-06T01:20:00.004+08:00

i'm working once again...
it feels different now...
w/o so many ppl...
oh well...

watched dark knight on sat...
great show...although i covered my eyes for at least 2/3 of the show...

i miss fairfield days...
yellow and blue

history repeats itself once again...
when will the cycle end completely?

random thots..
lack of slp...

2008-08-04T23:11:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAIRFIELD

2008-07-28T11:27:00.003+08:00

i'm proud of my junior leaders!! ..haha
last sat i was the onli officer around for parade...
and i onli knew abt it at 7.50am when the parade starts at 8am...within 10 mins i couldn't find any other manpower to help out...

so tata !! ...
i gt my junior leaders to help...told them at 8am that they are suppose to plan games for 35 gals and they onli haf 15 mins to plan and to prepare...and i'm realli amaze by them...they didn't give me the "huh" face...but they willingly agreed to take up the challenge...n indeed...within 15 mins ...they were ready for games....haha... n tat's nt all...the 35 gals enjoyed themselves! haha....i wasn't doing much during the games....all lead by the 5 junior leaders
n these gals they are jus pri5 kids...n it's their veri first time planning and leading games...i'm so proud of everyone of them..=)

i love these gals...
they showed me...wif a willing spirit and attitude ....nothing is too tough

all ready for the game

finding the first clue

the 1st to finish the game

2008-07-27T18:46:00.003+08:00

life without work is great..haha
celebrated irwin's bdae at timbre
ks celebrated his b'dae at aranda chalet
celebrated ru and wayne's b'dae at brewerkz yesterdae...
great time of get together(s)...
generally tat was my jul...
there's gonna be more muggings in aug...
oh well....

balance is the key....
but it's more than jus balancing itself...knowing the season you are in is impt...
the things you focus on depends on the season you are in...
i finally understood...

2008-07-09T16:43:00.002+08:00

finally...made up my mind...
gonna stop being comfortable at where i am ...
it's time to stop youtubing....n do something more meaningful...haha...
friday..officially the last...
company lunch and bowling on friday...wat a great way to end...=p

Ben and Linda's wedding was sweet...i miss the couple already...
photos check out facebook...too lazy to upload here...

happy birthday big guy .... =) it's still in my mind

2008-06-28T23:03:00.003+08:00

june is almost over...jul is coming..
one of the highlights in june was enrolment...
being our 1st combine enrolment...i thot it was quite good...
tiring...but all of us had fun..=)

2008-06-21T00:07:00.001+08:00

goodbye...

2008-05-30T16:38:00.002+08:00

today is the day...somehow everyone is reminded of it again...
big guy...everyone misses you still...

2008-05-28T10:50:00.004+08:00

many will say.."i'm willing to gif You my all ", "i'm willing to lay my life down for You" etc
but eventually how many will really do it? how many will stick to wat they said and prayed

it is nt just words...it is nt jus a prayer...it is a commitment...

haf you forgotten abt those prayers?
i know you said it at least once before...
it's time to do something abt it once again...

i pray that i won't forget...

2008-05-24T00:00:00.001+08:00

drive to some empty space...
scream and yell like no one business...

2008-05-21T10:25:00.005+08:00

everything was fine and fun...till they step in...
why are they so different and special?
teachers are teachers isn't it?
it's a matter of willingness...

it has always been my love and passion..
till i met this group of horrids...
who turn my love and passion into nightmare...
the ppl who lose out is nt them...is the gals...
wat can i sae or do?
nothink...
but watch the gals miss out on wat a true blue GB gal will experience

well...guess i haf enough...it's time to let go isn't it?
those constant debates and fights for officers rights are weighing me down..
P.U.S.H seems so impossible here...
i dun see the pt in tis anymore..
it's no longer GB...it's jus a girls gathering
you no need us to be there to haf one...

2008-05-17T21:37:00.002+08:00

i ought to catch up on my slp and haf lesser pimples after exams..
but the opposite is happening..
i'm having lesser slp and i'm having more pimples..arghh..
but well..i'm enjoying my break...
coming tues will be back to work...
guess onli den will my slp-ing hours increase...
hopefully...

counting down to bed time soon...gt to wake up at 5ish tml....woot!
i haf been slping at that lately...n now i haf to wake up at tat time...irony...hahaha

2008-05-14T02:06:00.003+08:00

no ordinary chocolate...know why?
not only was it air flown back...
it's one of the investments of the richest man on earth...warren buffett...
never knew he invested in chocolates...haha...but that's a smart move...coz no one...or rather...nt many can resist chocolates...haha...
but shocking or amazing thing is this...ever since warren buffett bought over See's candy...their pre tax earnings increased from 4mil to 60mil!!
no wonder he has overtake bill gates...
invest in chocolates anyone? haha

2008-05-13T12:18:00.006+08:00

WANTED!!

Any information on the whereabouts of these items, pls contact me immediately at 9*******(you should haf my contact!! )

haha..yes...i am back to my hunt for gold watches...
gt to head down to mustafa one of these daes...

2008-05-12T23:25:00.002+08:00

that image kept coming back to me..
is that the real you? is that who you realli wan to be?
where is that old you?
i'm jus puzzled...

exams are over...finally...
i'm glad that it's over...

2008-05-05T00:30:00.002+08:00

service was great...
it has been a long time...

"I will not let go until You heard my prayers!"
"I cannot let you stay because your father prayed!"

Wow...the wonders of prayer...
i need to "P.U.S.H"
pray until something happens...
fruitfulness
faithfulness

exams are irritating me...
it feels like i haf been studying for so long
arghh...
i can't wait for it to be over...
counting down...
7 more days...

2008-05-03T10:15:00.004+08:00

found a pix in my com...
we were all so excited...
till we forgot tat we haf blocked "the star for the dae" face
guess who is the star..haha

we all look so different now..haha..
mind you...tis was taken abt 4 yrs ago...haha
those daes are greatly missed...

2008-05-01T06:57:00.003+08:00

jus gt back home...
after mugging for a day...
decide to gif myself a break..
initial plan was to do prawning...
but that place was infested by rubbish...flies and ppl of course...
n guess wat...
headed down to west coast park for a mini bbq instead...
pixs up after my exams

gonna slp real soon...
gonna be another muggin dae...
can't wait for exams to be over...

i feel provoke in the spirit...
i need ppl who can do something abt it...
nt jus comment abt it...n watch things happen...
dunno wat to do? PRAY!

2008-04-27T21:09:00.002+08:00

the little guest who has been staying at my place since fridae...going back tml...
my ex colleague made my dae...
she sent me a pix of my eye candy at my previous workplace....
he is nt tat cute after all....haha

back to my books

2008-04-24T23:57:00.004+08:00

Mark 9:23-24 (New King James Version)

23 Jesus said to him, “If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes.”
24 Immediately the father of the child cried out and said with tears, “Lord, I believe; help my unbelief!

Many times...it's there...but our unbelief haf blinded our spiritual eyes...
My cry tonite...like the father..."help my unbelief ! "

2008-04-22T03:05:00.002+08:00

my dinner for todae...weird combi ar?
was too lazy to walk down to get my dinner...
moreover i was having an irritating headache for the whole dae...
wanted to fill my stomach fast so tat i can pop my pain killers

i seriously dun like headaches...
it spoils my dae...
it makes me moody...
it makes me feels frustrated...
cos of the stupid headache...
my monday was lousy... =(

2008-04-20T00:12:00.008+08:00

went taos wif piggies today...
food was good...n company was great...
had our annual pix taken...
same ppl...same position...

annie compiled... =)
more years to come ... =)

wat's behind tat smile?
i wan back the joy...

2008-04-17T00:19:00.003+08:00

why do ppl gif up?
they gif up b'coz they haf lose hope...
they gif up b'coz they haf nothing else to hold on to

past few mths i haf been holding on to something dearly..
not wanting to gif it up..
willing to gif up almost everything in exchange for it...
but today...i haf decided to gif it all up...
i was a fool...a big one
gone a big round and now everything is back to square one...
i thot things would change...but now i know...it will nt...

cried...fought wif the idea of nt giving up...thot of reasons to hold on...
but todae...i know it's time to let go...

selfish is the word i can think of now...

2008-04-16T01:50:00.004+08:00

tis is wat i want now...
auntie...quick start business again!!!

2008-04-14T22:29:00.008+08:00

went haji lane ...
first time there..
n i found my fav swing ... =)

other than tat...they haf lots of vintage clothes...
but the price is rather steep...
i was dead tired yesterdae...
had enough adventures for the wk...
knock off at 10ish yesterdae...n woke up at 10ish tis morning...
full 12 hours... i love...
when's the next power slp? hopefully after exams...
it's back to mugging for the next few wks ...

directions pls ....

2008-04-12T10:57:00.001+08:00

i'm tired and sleepy...
but i'm hot and smelly now...
i need to bath before i can go to bed....
but i'm too lazy to move my butt to the bathroom...
argh...

2008-04-10T23:53:00.003+08:00

mugging day...from 11 till 3 and from 8 to 10...gonna continue again...man...can't wait for tml to be over...it seems so tough...argh...i need more braincells...

guess the muggin has killed most of my braincells....i was at lucky plaza waiting for dia...n instead...i told her i was at far east...until she reached far east...den i realize my mistake...sorry babe...but at least you gt ya stuff...=)

tired ...

2008-04-10T01:00:00.008+08:00

2008-04-05T13:55:00.001+08:00

random...
i miss my cousins!!
things haf changed so much...
i miss those daes...
i wanna go back to those daes...

2008-04-04T23:29:00.002+08:00

it's gonna be mugging weeks ahead...
seriously...i'm feeling the pressure...
everyone is like excelling...
but my grades are nothink compared to theirs...
at times i do wonder...haf i made the right choice?
if i din choose watever i haf chosen...
perhaps i need nt go through all that i'm going through...
but it's already too late...
i jus haf to finish it up..

fallen...so deep...will i ever get out of it...

2008-04-03T00:57:00.003+08:00

it's painful...but i haf to...
i dun wish to...but i haf to...
i dun wanna be stuck anymore...
wat's causes all these change?

supper was great...
bak kut teh and bike ride...
loves

2008-03-30T20:57:00.004+08:00

haven done tis for a long long time...
went ECP for a short cycle wif the gals...
visited our all time fav. stopover...bedok jetty...

where is the end? will it ever end?

2008-03-28T23:56:00.002+08:00

haven been able to slp for the past few daes..
waking up at odd hours...
i feel like a walking zombie now...
was using my final bit of energy during cg jus now...
n i'm having a long dae tml as well...
gosh...
guess it's nt my week...
a better wk ahead...
i hope

before i go...jus a shoutout to jianting, joreen and wilson...tks for all the preparation done for tonite!... was impressed and amazed by what we haf tonite..simple..yet nice...and well thot...tks guys and gal ... =) n of course...to the rest of W263...nt forgetting all of you...tks for the evening/nite... i still like the "meow" game...and yes...i remember...i still owe all of you one forfeit....with merrien... =)

2008-03-27T00:03:00.003+08:00

ibook died on me...
my phone is becoming retarded...
uncertain abt international trade test...
exam is drawing near...
irritating cough is coming back
1 extra pimple popped out

happier note...
i gt my new hoodie...loves...=)

hard...but going to...

2008-03-24T08:55:00.004+08:00

went for a food feast yesterdae after service...haven had so many sinful food in a dae for a long long time...but it feels good...=p
alrite...now tat i'm well...i gt to go back to the gym real soon...=p

2008-03-21T13:36:00.002+08:00

let me fly ...

2008-03-15T09:58:00.002+08:00

haf been coughing so badly last nite till i can't slp...
mum gt up and jus accompanied me through the nite...
n even bought one of my fav breakfast...
I LOVE MY MUM... =)

2008-03-13T20:05:00.002+08:00

the rain has jus dampen my mood to head out...
i dun like the wet feeling...
plus i'm still nursing my cough...
so...i shall be good and spend time wif my black box.. =)

i'm in my whiny mood...
jus gif me a couple more daes...
i will be fine...=p

decision made...it's clear...i'm happy...yes i am

2008-03-10T22:58:00.002+08:00

JLTC was great...
some hiccups at the start...TIC left after 3 hours..
after tat...everything went well... =)
even had bo bo cha cha during debrief....tks beng lay or rather..her husband...haha

i'm sick again...sore throat and cough...
hate sore throat...ouch!!

2008-03-07T01:21:00.002+08:00

BF is done...i thot i'm rite...but turn out...i'm careless once again...crap...next is RM...argh...can't wait for tis mth to be over..or rather...can't wait for the sem to be over...

going for JLTC over the wkends...nt exactly excited abt it ... another wkend wif the TIC...another wkend of war...another wkend of debates...another rushy wkend...
onli consolation...i get to spend time wif my fav gals...=)

oh man... i need a nite out desperately ...

monday - leap years ... =)

when the going gets tough...the tough gets going ...

2008-02-29T23:50:00.003+08:00

this date will onli appear once every 4 yrs...thus my entry todae...=)

anyway...it was sentosa yesterdae..i miss the sun...although i'm paying the price now..but i'm still loving it..=)

back to work todae..after toking lisa...i'm seriously considering wat i should do next sem...i'm kinda of bored of MS ...it's time to move on...on the other hand..i can't decide till nite PT class is confirm...so we shall see how ba...

k..enough of my nonsense post...it's time for my date wif my BF...before you guys start thinking otherwise...BF = Business Finance ... =)

2008-02-25T23:46:00.002+08:00

realize how busy all of us can get when we grow older...was toking to mandy...planning for dinner...n guess wat...we haf to wait till next wk or even the wk after next to meet up...gosh...

gone are the days when we can jus sit at mac as and when we want to...
gone are the daes when we can jus pop by holland straight after school and talk nonsense till it's time to report home...

why are we so busy?

2008-02-20T06:09:00.003+08:00

i can't slp...argh...
hates it when i wake up in the middle of the nite...
head spinning... desperately needs to slp... but can't ...

days ahead...choices need to be made...

2008-02-15T01:06:00.002+08:00

v'dae was spent wif sx and ks...
celebrated sx belated b'dae..
after dinner headed to meritus mandarin for a drink..
38 level above ground...nice view

2008-02-13T23:09:00.004+08:00

it's the first cny i din have any gatherings on the 1st day of cny...
it's the first cny i din watch jack neo's movie with my cousins...
it's the first cny i din get to watch my cousins, aunties and uncles gamble...
it's the first cny i step into a home to visit my granny...
it's the first cny without you...

i still wish to bum into you when ever i take cabs...
seeing blue cabs reminds me of you...
those stories you haf .. those fishing experiences ...

i do wonder veri often... where are you now?
watever the different views abt life after death may be...
i choose to believe that you are at a better place now...
i miss you still...

2008-02-08T09:32:00.000+08:00

how lousy can i get...jus one late nite out n now i'm down wif flu and wif tat feverish feeling...arghh...

but i'm still gonna eat up my fav cny goodies...hahahaha....

anyway...tis is abit late....

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YR!!

2008-02-02T22:10:00.000+08:00

ooo...time flies...now we are into the 2nd mth of the yr...
it has been an eventful mth...
attended several parties...climbed tree top finally...gt hit by several stuff tat happen...
it was a mth of learning ... n i'm still learning...
learning nt to allow my emotions to take over...
nt easy ar...at least for me...
alrite...at least i'm looking forward to feb... =)

2008-01-21T20:47:00.000+08:00

i wanna go away.. nt to bintan..nt to KL..nt to bangkok...nt for 3-4 days ... nt for 1 - 2 wks...
i wanna haf a change of environment...a change of surrounding...a change of everything...
perhaps going for that internship is a good opportunity...
nat is going london soon...linda is going perth soon...
if i'm to go...it will be a yr later...
till den...i will jus haf to live life as it is now...

2008-01-20T22:40:00.000+08:00

my "kids" made and bought me these....
i love them all ... =)
they are the sweetest "kids" one can ever ask for ... =)

2008-01-18T00:23:00.000+08:00

studying seems so tough now...was totally lost in lect today.
tried so hard to listen but yet nothink goes in but confusion...
aiyoyoyo...wat's happening wif my brain...
perhaps i'm still distracted...
it's time to do something abt it...

empty promises .... it hurts ....

2008-01-16T20:16:00.000+08:00

been wanting to get ipod since a few yrs back...made a goal to get ipod video tis yr...but after seeing mr frog's i touch....i haf change my mind!!!

i touch is soooooo pretty!!! ....it's sleek and has many functions as well... i love ... =p

2008-01-12T01:47:00.000+08:00

had a long n tiring wk...wat a way to start my new yr...had to work n had nite class for the past 4 daes...it was torture... salute to all part time students....

but "COOL" made my wk better...it was a nite of absolute unglam-ness...haha....it's gd at times jus to dress weirdly...n jus haf a good laugh at how odd you look...hahaa...it's time to think of the next theme...heeee

gonna catch my beauty slp...my complexion is still terrible...arghhh....

2008-01-06T20:31:00.000+08:00

back from KL...a trip filled with nothingness but fun...laughter...crap...food...shopping...n more food..malaysia's bak kut teh is still the best...=p

well...trip is over...it's back to reality...back to the super fast pace life...
school is starting tml...n jus by looking at my timetable for the mth...i nearly fainted...gonna work for the whole wk...followed by night class from mon to thurs...7pm to 10pm...wat a way to start my sem...but well...onli consolation is tat chi new yr is coming...in abt a mth's time..gosh...one PH jus ended n i'm looking forward to the next...haha...

totally screwed up my grades last sem...tis sem gonna work extra hard...no more late nites EXCEPT on fridays...so dun ask me out on other daes...i will bite...grrrr!! haha

some pixs before i zonk out ...

2007-12-31T00:45:00.001+08:00

had our last cg fellowship for 2007 at T3 ...=)

2007-12-29T04:43:00.000+08:00

finally...quarter mth end is over...no more late nite OTs for the time being...now i look like a zombie...all zonk out...i'm gonna crash into my bed soon....not slping yet coz i just officially completed my work..haha..jus sent in the finally email....woohooo...=p i'm happy now...=p but whether there are mistakes or nt is another matter lah...hee...

nice night out wif cg...went marina bay for steamboat...had our gift exchange...felt bad...coz i din realli prepare my gift...din haf the time..was work n work for the past few daes...but anyhow...someone gave baby power...n someone started a power fight...n coz of tat...all of us ended up white...or rather..we look "old"...=p

k...email sent...i need my bed...nightz

2007-12-27T11:38:00.000+08:00

i need the sun...got into my office before the sun is up...n got out of it when the moon is up...argh...can't wait for next wk...

but at least...i see the mountain clearing...phew

yesterdae's surprise was sweet....tks peepz...=)

2007-12-25T20:47:00.000+08:00

xmas is here...n it's gonna be over in a few hours time...n i'm amaze tat i still manage to stay awake wif onli 2.5 hours of slp yesterdae...haha...knocking out reali soon...=p

this season is filled wif mix emotions...i was happy...all ready to celebrate xmas...till i heard abt some stuff...indeed sometimes a person can't learn unless he or she goes through the hard way...the incident jus happen a few mths back n she has clearly forgotten abt it...i'm washing my hands off tis matter... even if at the end of the dae she gets sent in...or if anything should happen...i will jus sae...we haf warned you...it's ya life...i can't dictate it...it's realli foolish...n naive...

on a lighter note...i love the candle light service...guess tat's the highlight...snapping pixs whenever there's a chance...was too lazy to dish out my cam...so make do wif all the hp cameras...=p

merry xmas big guy ... =)

2007-12-22T03:00:00.000+08:00

much has happen ever since the last entry...it's gonna be too wordy if i'm to blog it all..

xmas is round the corner... lights are up...carols are ringing...the xmas mood is in the air...am i catching the festive mood? kind of...but i'm too tired to enjoy it...everything is happening too fast...everydae seems like a mad rush for me... i wanna slow down...

after these few daes...all i wan is to slow things down alittle... n jus enjoy...
enjoy life...enjoy the company of everyone...

Merry Xmas !! =)

2007-12-11T14:25:00.000+08:00

had a weird dream last nite...dreamt tat i drop alot of hair...n i mean ALOT...tat dream better nt come true...

GB/BB camp was fun..putting aside all the ugly stuff tat happen...guess all of us enjoyed ourselves...the last nite was hilarious...thanks to the senior gals who realli hyped up the whole atmosphere for us...

at work...gt warn tat the next two wks are gonna be siong...dec mth end is one of the craziest mth end during the yr...well..let's see if this is worse than the june mth end...hee

k...enough of my random post...i jus wanna do something other than looking at those documents...haha

2007-11-30T00:50:00.000+08:00

having a GB camp in a few hours time, just finish doing up the camp stuff...haven pack my bag at all and yet i am here..haha

tis wk has been a tiring wk...mentally, physically and emotionally...

as usual..waking up at 7am every single day has been a challenge to me...every single dae i have to struggle with the temptation of calling in to say that i'm nt going to office...but the thot of my salary at the end of the mth...somehow i gt up n dash to work...work has been coming in...n more to come in dec...gonna start training in another system...which means more work...hopefully it won't be tough to learn ba...

on top of the ZZZ monster...the planning and preparation of the camp has zap off my remaining energy...with the constant calls from the teachers in charge...they nearly drove me nuts...seriously...can't they see things from another point of view..can't they be more flexible? shall nt elaborate anymore...

the ultimate was the death of the big guy...it realli hit me after i talk to XL...i miss him already...i regret nt turning up for those gatherings...all i saw that nite was a motionless body...i wanna see him smile again...i wanna see him run on track again...i wanna see him row again...
like what many had said...it's a great loss...yes it is...onli consolation is he died while doing something that he loves..where his passion is...life is unfair...but i know God has his plans for him...

on a lighter note...went JB for a few hours wif justin,zzh n shu...impromptu trip...simple but great...their company never fails to cheer me up...

hey big guy...tks for ya friendship...the joy, laughter and fun you haf brought to me and the team...will always remember you as the big guy who knows how to play the piano beautifully...you may nt be here anymore...but one thing for sure...ya music lives on...greatly miss by many...tat includes me...

2007-11-26T10:18:00.000+08:00

read the text...grab the papers...n i was lost for words...

heard abt the news...
but it never cross my mind tat he will be one of the 5 tat went missing...

to you my friend,

thanks for all the joy that you haf brought to the team ...

those daes will always remind vivid in my mind...

knowing that we will meet again...someday..somewhere else...

rest in peace.

2007-11-19T13:51:00.000+08:00

first dae back at work..n guess wat...there's no work...haha...

so once again i'm paid for surfing the net and watching you tube...however...dun envy me...coz tis is far to boring... n when work comes in...wish me luck..haha..

some pixs taken at the begining of the year...haha...yes...it's long long over due...

although it's nt full uni...but all of us haf the "zai" feel...haha...

2007-11-17T23:20:00.000+08:00

trip was bad...fell sick on the 2nd dae...ended up in the hotel room most of the time...but it was a good time to catch up on my slp...since i slept like abt 3-4 hours every nite during my exam wk ..
=)

anyway...now it's back to reality...no more holidae...it's work n more work...n i dread to take back my results...arghh...it's one of the worse exams ever....wat's done is done...shall nt think abt it till tat dae...

tat's all for now...byeee

will it ever be the same again?

2007-11-09T08:52:00.000+08:00

counting down...

5 more hours to my last paper..
7 more hours to the end of exams...
24 hours before i get to see my little ones again...
48 hours before i fly off to bangkok....whee!

for now...back to notes...

2007-11-03T18:22:00.000+08:00

One of the things i will do when i'm feeling super brain dead is to chop my hair... n i did it todae...i said bye to long fringe and hi to short fringe...yes...once again i look like a small gal...ARGH!!

blame it on my impulse....

2007-11-01T16:19:00.000+08:00

something gt me distracted from my revision todae... my NEW IMAC!!!

nope...i din purchase a new one...wat happen was i went to repair my imac a few daes back...coz there's lots of dead pixels on my screen...n apparently they can't repair it for me as they don't haf any more screen to replace it for me...n they are nt sure when will the next shipment arrive...so they haf decided to replace a new imac for me...

i thot it's gonna be the same one as my current imac...maybe a slightly bigger screen coz i was told it's gonna be a 20" imac...mine was 17"...but when it arrive earlier on...man....nt onli was it huge....but it's different from my old imac!! ...the casing is silver in colour..i always wanted to get something from apple that is nt white in colour...n ta-ta...dream came true...n i love the key board... it's super sleek....it's even thinner den a new writing pad...n there's a remote control for it!! .... but the best part is...i'm given MAC OS X Leopard!!! .... it's mac latest operating system...like windows there's win XP, win vista etc....n it was launched like few daes back?

yes..as you can see...i'm veri excited over my new imac...setting up now....installing the software etc...n it's taking some time...so while waiting...i took some pixs of my imac...

jus when i thot i'm nt gonna be a loyal apple fan anymore... i'm attracted to it once again...arghh!! ...
a mac book next perhaps ?

2007-10-25T22:56:00.000+08:00

i am tired...tired from all the mugging...
perhaps it's the exams stress that has "emo-fied" my dae...is there such a word? ha

was at mac todae...chose a corner seat by the glass panel...sat there wif my notes scattered over the table...wif a cup of hot tea in my hands...geared in my winter wear ( jus my sweater actually) ... feeling as if it's winter but it's actually scorching hot out there...suppose to study but there i was...letting my mind wander...ppl watching...

"you haven been toking much lately" he asked ... my ans was jus a smile ....
it's true ... i haf shut myself from him since tat incident ... i tried to let go ... but the hurt was too deep ... to be mend jus like that .... gif me more time perhaps ?

2007-10-24T00:10:00.000+08:00

move on ppl ... move on ...
stop telling yourself tat you can't ...because you can..
stop saying there is no other way ... because there is ...
stop saying that it is impossible ... because it is possible...
stop thinking abt those negative stuff... because there is much more positive stuff to think abt...

renew ya mind... renew ya thinking...

even when you have done all that you can...the least you can do now...is to pray n believe...do nt belittle prayer...yes...you may haf done all that you could...but haf you been praying till it happens?

"my breakthrough is nt happening, my life is still the same..."
are you still praying for it?
or are you jus waiting for it to happen...plain waiting will nt result in anything...

pray and believe...

this is nt directed to anyone... tis is for everyone... including myself ...

2007-10-20T01:38:00.000+08:00

alrite...it's mugging season once again...i'm left wif 1 wk plus before i haf to meet wif the horrible"E"...gosh..time flies...it feels like yesterdae when i said i haf 1 mth of study break..haha...

anyhow ... most prob flying up to bangkok after my exams...wif my mum..aunties n cousins...well...it was a sudden n last min decision i suppose...nothink is confirm till my butt touches the plane seat...haha...

k...it's back to my mugging...one more chapt to go before i can head for the bed...

black n white - in my own world - solitude
distance - what's wrong ?

2007-10-09T13:17:00.000+08:00

yesterdae was a screaming session for the fabulous trio...hee...

met up for dinner n thereafter was KTV session...had our fair share of emo songs...but the highlight was the high n oldie songs...hee..we sang "cha shao bao" ...can you believe it??!! hee...i forgot abt tat song till dia n izak mention abt it..haha...

anyhow...it was fun...

presenting to you...the fabulous trio ...